Small offenses turn into roots of bitterness. Rejection turns to shame. God allows us to suffer the consequences of our sin, while waiting with open arms for us to simply confess and renounce the things that keep us from Him. Discipline comes for our own good. The wise person heeds God’s discipline. The wise person examines his steps.
“The wisdom of the prudent is to give thought to their ways,
but the folly of fools is deception.” —Proverbs 14:8.
Over my 18 years in ministry, there have also been many seasons. Seasons of change, growth, maturity, discipline, and evaluation have all played a part of whom I am and who Passion Missions is today. Some seasons have been more challenging than others, while others seem seamless. Last year, Passion Missions had a season of reaping what we have sown over the years. The fruit was very good. Those we had been serving for six years were beginning to go with us to serve on trips and other local service opportunities. Our friends from the nursing home went to downtown Austin to feed the homeless with us. We saw homeless women go on trips where their lives were forever changed. They learned first-hand what Jesus meant when He said:
“It is more blessed to give than to receive.” —Acts 20:35
As this fruit was beginning to blossom, it also felt like the bottom was falling out from Passion Missions and the resources were drying up. This began a season of evaluation. The board and I tried to make sense out of what was happening, and tried to figure things out but couldn’t get past, “Something’s not working.” This realization drove us to our knees.
You might expect to read next how God has supplied for our financial needs. But that is not how the story goes. God began to reveal Himself, and I, Melissa, had to repent of the many ways I have tried to do things in my own strength. I had to clear the air with God and regain my trust that He had my best interest in mind. I repented of the ways I had put Passion Missions ahead of Him. I had to change, to completely turn around and begin to do things differently: To stop acting in fear and to trust God completely. My intimacy with God was restored as I confessed my personal sin as well of the sin of how I had been leading. As my ear began to listen to God’s voice, it became clearer and clearer. I realized it was not Passion Missions that was not working, it was that it was not working in our own strength. God wanted a complete surrendering, to know that we would follow Him no matter what He asked us to do. He also brought clarity to the vision and I am excited to watch what He has in store over the remainder of this year and into the next. Passion Missions has been growing up and maturing over the past several months, and we appreciate your prayers, your faithfulness, your support, your love and most of all your heart to be right where God wants you to be, doing what He wants you to do.